Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love ya, Tomorrow!

  Tears that started yesterday morning at the doctor's office eventually turned to tears of a different kind as the day ended.  To my dissapointment, the fertility meds didn't work as well as they should have; or should I say I did not respond to the meds as well as expected.  An ultrasound showed one, lonely follicule on my right ovary.  Apparently my left ovary was taking a two week nap.  When you are a patient undergoing Assisted Reproductive Technologies, ideally a woman will produce atleast 3 or 4 follicules to increase the small chances of conception.  But instead, I'm left with a 20% chance.  So, what do you do with a two month time frame to conceive, a quickly diminishing savings account, and a 20% gamble on one (potential) egg?  You take it, damn it!
  We increased our chances slightly last night by trying at home first.  I won't go into the details on that, but let's just say that was an experience that neither one of us wants to relive.  After practically standing on my head for over an hour, we laughed so hard that my belly hurt.  Was that the baby kicking?  lol
  Oh, and let's not forget that big needle that I was terrified of.  After trying to stab me with it and not going THROUGH my skin, I told her that her days of being a doctor are officially over.  She even made me bend over!  It wasn't that bad, and even though I went through three seperate, painful experiences yesterday, hopefully the sacrifices will pay off.  A quote that got me through the day yesterday was "It's hard to wait for something you know might never happen; but it's harder to give up when you know that it's everything you want."-Unknown.  This quote made me really emotional yesterday when I realized that is exactly how I feel.  (Or was it the hormones?) 
 So, the next step will be our IUI which will be done tomorrow morning.  An IUI is an Intra-uterine insemination, which means they will take the donor sperm and "wash" it to seperate out the bad cells from the good ones.  Then, they will insert a catheter into the cervix to put the cells right next to the egg.  If all goes well, and the Hcg shot that Sara gave me last night works, then my doctor should know exactly what time I will ovulate, which will be sometime tomorrow morning.  Keep your fingers crossed that 20% is the new 80%!